Didn't turn out to be my fairytale after all. Every single carefully laid plan for my life has fallen through, so I really should not have been so surprised, but I was. I was in deeper than ever before. I was completely convinced the universe was actually a good place that rewarded people for being the best you could possibly be to yourself and others. I can confidently say, however, that everything that has happened to me thus far has been a blessing in disguise. A man that would do everything in his power to charm me head over heels, convince me to move across the world for him and then dump me, leaving me on a remote Pacific island with no family or friends...is not the man I deserve.
He didn't realize who he was fucking with.
I have made a life for myself here. I have a place. I am needed and appreciated. I have a nice apartment, I just bought a nice SUV, I'm paying off my student loans, and can buy my Mom Tiffany's for her birthday. I'm traveling the world and experiencing life. I'm going to either join the Foreign Service or go back to nursing school when I'm done here in two years.
I'm living life for myself, and it feels amazing. I get lonely sometimes...but these days I can at least count on myself and myself alone. I haven't disappointed myself a single day since I've set foot on this island. I am hard working, reliable, self sufficient and seizing every opportunity I can find.
Photo is by me of my friend Hippie the day she taught me to surf for the first time.
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