Just a bunch of garbage spewing from my depressed, stressed, confused brain.
I feel like I'm permanently damaged. Forever broken. No one will want to keep me in their life for long. Because I'm not good enough. My last ex was right, even if I could get another man who treated me well he would eventually see me for the horrible person I am and leave me because I deserved it.
My biggest desire in life is to be a wife and mother. And it's never going to happen. Unless I get mail order groom or some contrived situation.
I really don't like the sound of your blog.......your self loathing is disturbing. you are NOT a horrible person, and anyone who tells you that never deserved you in the first place.
ReplyDeleteI encourage you to please speak to a professional.
Like I said, this post in particular is mind trash. This is my place to vent. Whether anything I say on here is true or not is irrelevant. Also, the header of my blog disclaims that this blog is for my personal use, but if you read it I'm not going to stop you. I am currently seeking professional help, thank you.
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