I have been dancing for over two months now in Guam at Club USA, and in that time I have learned a lot from my experiences that I did not expect.
Never have I been ashamed of dancing, but I didn't think I would find some pride in it. In Guam strip clubs most money is made by conversation. It is the art of seduction, fantasy, and entertainment at its finest. To me it is a clearly defined skill that improves with practice and consideration, but it is also an ever changing trait with a life of its own. For this I am grateful, because one of my greatest fears is the absence of growth and change.
I am not a prostitute, and 9 out of 10 times I talk to someone I have no inclination to lie about myself. When I'm working it is my job to present a fantasy, but I am still myself. A fantasy does not have to equal fake. I cannot abide deceiving people, even if its quite possible they deserve it.
So in summary I suppose I'm just trying to say that I am incredibly happy with my job and my life at the moment, and I feel incredibly fortunate to have these experiences. I could never have imagined myself where I am now...but I'm so glad I'm here.
I know a lot of people hold the opinion that stripping is demeaning to women and only those with some sort of dependency issue, whether drug, alcohol, or self esteem related, would choose this profession, but that is so far from the truth. I finally feel I am growing into myself. I have no doubts about where I am in life. I can't and won't do this forever, but right now it's exactly where I want to be.
Wonderful photo by the way....
ReplyDeleteCarla Johnson touched on seduction in her blog last week http://drlightness.blogspot.com/2011/03/seduction.html. Very good reading
As a dancer, as a model, you must present a fantasy. The dance, the image are not real, but they are created to sell a story, so to speak. Very nice to hear you are happy and proud of your dancing